Distance – Die Stance I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself because at the moment I much more prefer to keep a distance from others in support, meaning, that I feel more comfortable assisting and supporting others through means such as writing and art. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and be somebody I am not, because I have not accepted the fact that I prefer to support from a distance. I forgive myself that for accepting and allowing myself to believe that just because I, at the moment, feel much more comfortable and at home when I assist and support from a distance, within such tasks as drawing and writing, for instance, than I do when working up close and personal with another, where I am actually speaking with them and working with their body. The point I see is that ‘information’ intimidates me so to speak. Where I have found within my life that I have always tended to avoid the use of information, which now has ended up as me being distant from others in that I do not want to use information or specific words to assist and support them, because I have not learned how to effectively use information to assist and support a being. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking to another one on one, within a scenario where I am actually assisting and supporting them, because I feel I am not specific enough to support them using words/information, thus I fear being embarrassed when the person realize that I am not effective using information. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep a distance from others, within assisting and supporting them, because I see myself as not yet capable of effectively supporting another within using information words, thus allowing my experience of muscle communication to be one of fear and frustration. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within frustration in and around the process of muscle communication. I forgive myself that, from the beginning, I saw myself as less capable than other within muscle communication, in that it does not come naturally to me, as in I was not/am not programmed to work with information. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make a big a thing out of muscle communication. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself because I have not been effective within muscle communication. I used Muscle communication to test out the thought pattern of – “I am not strong enough” I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt that I tested the right point. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt the point that I tested out because I experienced doubt and uncertainty within me. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when the experience of uncertainty comes up. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for who I am, specifically when working on projects for example, when I was in school I was never considered smart or intelligent, which I wanted to be. I found projects  and working with information, such as sorting it, organizing it, gathering it, never came easy to me, and within this I judged myself. This type of work was not a natural expression for me. I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see when things do not work for me, because I just do not want to accept that I am unable to do something effectively. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to admit to myself when something does not work.